Not I, But Christ

To some, I’m just another blogger. To some, just another teen, another face on the street, another quiet girl. To still others, I’m a sibling, a daughter, or a friend. Some see me through judgmental eyes, seeing me as “holier than thou”. Some see the true me, flawed and far, far, far, far, far from perfect. However you see me, whether by choice or by circumstance, I have one small hope.

I pray that you would see me not as another girl, another human, a friend, blogger, or chocoholic. I pray that instead, you would see me as a reflection, a signpost, a mirror, turning your gaze from who I am to the Creator of heaven and earth. I hope that when people see me, they do not see my life, my choices, my words or actions; I hope that when they see me, they will see Christ through me. I pray that they will see that the stupid choices I’ve made have been used by God for His glory, the errs both accidental and intentional twisted to show His grace and forgiveness, His mercy and love.

Mistakes, I have plenty. Wrong choices ever abound. Foolish words, stupid actions, and scars of sin mark my life. But it is my prayer and hope that despite who I am, despite these imperfections, and despite my sin-stained life, that through these imperfections and sins I can be a light that shines so brightly that it can’t be denied, pointing the way to Christ. Not that I may continue to sin, but that through the sins I have committed, it can be shown that Christ forgives and loves me all the same. I hope that it can be seen in my life how incredibly marvelous God is, how remarkably amazing and unfathomable His power and might is, and how greatly He loves His children. I hope that my life can be a testimony of His healing grace and mercy that washes away all record of sin. That is what I pray the story of my life can be. I hope people can see my life, etched with sin, and say “the Lord has worked in her life in mighty ways! See how marvelous He is!”

There are people I know whom I have seen the Lord do great things with, in which I have seen His hand at work in their lives. There are people I have seen who are not shining brightly for His glory, who try to live a life separate from the Lord. I have seen myself do things that honor Him and things that do not. I have made some very poor, foolish choices, and I have spurned His love over and over again. Yet, despite it all, I know that God takes the broken, dirty, old things and turns them into whole, beautiful, new creations. I pray that He will use this worn, sinful heart to do amazing things, to be a testimony of His love and redemption.

This is what I pray that my life would be seen as. Yes, you will see my imperfections and my sins. I am not excusing the things that I do that break God’s law and do not bring Him glory. In no way would I try to justify that; that’s not the point I’m trying to make. I simply hope that you see the sins in my life as the sins that God has washed away with the love of His blood, and see that He can do the same for you. I pray that you will see the scars of sin that I bear as a testimony that He truly does make all things new.

Merry Christmas

Hey y’all. Sorry I’ve slacked in writing here, I’ve been pretty busy and stressed with a lot of different things going on in my life. But I can’t forget about Christmas!

I don’t have an outstanding, knock-your-socks-off Christmas post, so sorry to disappoint you there. Go check out other awesome blogs if you want great Christmas posts, because I can’t provide one for you today. (i.e. this post) Or go read my post for Christmas last year. 😉

I wasn’t ready for Christmas this year. It just sorta came out of nowhere… And I haven’t done much to really appreciate this holiday celebrating the birth of our Savior. I *have* listened to Christmas music, however. Now, I’ll admit it, I hate most Christmas music. It’s honestly really irritating to me. Nevertheless, I love this particular version of this song. (And this song led to an unhealthy addiction of Peter Hollens’ music… I have a weird thing about guys singing a cappella.)

Again, I’m sorry for my absence here. I hope to get back to it within the next month or so. Thanks for being patient with me! Merry Christmas!

Are You Alarmed Yet?! (Pt. 2)

In my last post, I posed a few questions that are crucial to apologetics, which is defending our faith. The point was to try to show that we don’t really know that as much about what we believe as we’d like to think. While this video is an advertisement for a particular Bible, I’d like you to focus on the response that the teenagers give to the questions they’ve been asked. This is how we have grown up, and this is how we are “defending our faith”. Hopefully you will see that we need to have the knowledge to be able to truly defend our faith as Christians, to firmly assert what we believe.

Are You Alarmed Yet?! (Pt. 1)

I had the pleasure of going to an apologetics conference this weekend. (One of the blessings of living in a country that originally advocates religious freedom.) I’ve also been doing a lot of apologetics work in my speech club, so I’ve spent a good deal of time (I could probably safely say that I’ve spent quite a few hours over the past few months now) in researching what I believe. All of that to say, I’ve discovered something very alarming about what I believe, and that is this:

I don’t know why I believe what I believe.

There, I said it. No Christian blogger is supposed to say that, right? I mean, how could I admit to such a thing? The fact is, I profess to be a Christian. I believe that Jesus is the Son of God, was born of a virgin, lived a sinless life, died for my sins, redeemed and reconciled me, etc., etc., but honestly, how much of the details to these things do I know? Am I just simply believing what I’ve been told? The horrendous fact is that I have. It’s true that I do know many reasons for why I believe what I believe. I’m not completely ignorant. But if I were to get into a conversation with an adamant atheist tonight, I’m not sure how well I’d be able to persuade them that Christianity is true. I’m pretty ignorant about the “why” of some key aspects of my faith. And more than likely, you are too.

We take our faith for granted. We’re willing to accept so much. Of course, I’m sure you and I have both done a considerable amount of research regarding certain aspects of our faith. I’ve been raised to think analytically (even skeptically) and to think things through, so I wouldn’t be quick to admit that I don’t know the details to what I believe.

It’s not that we don’t know what we believe. We do. It’s that we don’t know why we believe it.

That’s why I want to take a minute in this post and ask you to answer some questions. These are real questions we will face when talking about our faith with others – I didn’t make these up. Take a few minutes (or an hour…) and humor me. Don’t pull out your concordance. Don’t pull out your Bible. Don’t whip out Wikipedia or Google. Answer these questions with the knowledge you already have in your head, as a comment below. And see what observations you’ve made when you’re done.


  • Is the Old Testament a reliable historical document?
  • Are Scriptures and science in conflict?
  • How would you respond to the statement, “It doesn’t matter what you believe as long as you’re sincere”?
  • What evidence is there for the resurrection of Jesus?
  • Why did Jesus have to die to provide salvation for men?