*sits down with ice cream* Let’s get down to business here.
So basically, these past two weeks have been.…………. Horrible. Truly awful. I’ve been sick, I’ve been stressed like crazy, my life sort of went berserk and hasn’t quite settled back into a routine, and I’ve been carrying a lot of people through hard stuff.
Pretty much, I’m ready for a break. (Which isn’t gonna happen. I already asked God for one and He said “No”.)
You see, I’ve spent a lot of time these past two weeks fighting. Fighting myself. Fighting lies. Even *gasp* fighting God. Fighting the people I love most. Fighting my worst enemy: the dragon that is threatening to destroy me. And he’s doing a really good job of it at the moment.
I’ve been turning something over in my mind though. (And I just realized I have this weird habit of leaning my head to the right all the way until it touches my shoulder when I type… Interesting. ANYWAY.) Have you ever tried to kill a dragon? It’s hard. And I didn’t realize how stinking hard it was until this past week. I’ve got people to help me, but my word, God didn’t create dragons to just be stabbed in the heart and the knight carries the princess off into the sunset. YIKES.
There’s a strategy, a formula, a system. To attack the dragon, you have to learn its weak points, its strengths, what feeds it and what weakens it, how to fight it and what only makes it worse. Because dragons aren’t as easily destroyed as other creatures, in case you didn’t know. (Listen to the dragon expert here.) (And yes, I use parentheses and asterisk marks too much, do you mind??) You have to learn the dragon to successfully defeat him.
Which takes time. And effort. And pain. And it’s a long, hard, very long, very hard procedure and battle. The King will forever look after His children, but there will be pain involved. The princess will be scratched by the dragon’s cutting claws. The knight will be singed by the dragon’s bitter fire. The King will pick them up, dust them off, and return them to the fight. The knight will hold the princess while she cries and the princess will nurse the knight’s wounds. And then they all get back up to fight the dragon.
Because the dragon doesn’t go away. The dragon doesn’t stop just because you’ve given it all you’ve got. The dragon is persistent, never failing, always persisting, never ceasing to try to destroy you with every breath. And it’s hard. It’s very, very hard.
BUT. The King keeps giving strength. I’ve seen it happen to me, His princess, who bears the marks of the dragon’s hate. I’ve seen it happen to the knight, those who have helped me fight this beast. I’ve seen us all fall, and get back up again, a little bruised and maybe broken, but we keep fighting.
And it’s not been easy. Every step of the way has been painful. But we keep going. We keep trying. We keep fighting. Because it’s not by our own strength, but by the strength, grace, and power of the King that we can even fight to begin with. If He gives us the strength to begin the fight, He will give us the strength to finish it. And He is victorious; He will defeat the dragon.